It’s definitely been a while since I
have written anything in my blog. I think that is because I wasn’t really
living in wonderful… it was more like a pit of depression. Boo… I am doing much
better now though. Not really what you’d expect since I separated from my
husband of 10 years roughly 6 months ago and we are now divorced, but it is
what it is.
Since the split, my kids, who are 6
and 7, have moved back into our smaller house across town and they started a
new school. I am going to be working as a tax associate at H&R Block for
the 2016 tax season, which wasn’t my first choice of jobs, but it was there and
it is income. I am also going to be starting at University of Phoenix to pursue
a Master’s of Education with a concentration in Teaching next month (that is
where I really want to be). Plus, now that my ex-husband is paying child
support (after the past several months of not paying it because a lawyer told
him he didn’t have to) my kids will have enough money to eat and keep the
lights on.
My kids are also flourishing in
their new school. My daughter had some testing earlier this year, and the
results showed that she should be learning at a fourth grade level instead of a
second grade level. At home, I have since bumped her up to a third to fourth
grade level in our discussions and the books that she wants to read outside of
school. My son has gotten very good at listening to directions and is reading
very well for a first grader that turned 6 less than a week before school
started. He is a master at math though. I’m thinking of starting him on
multiplication while they are on Christmas break if he is receptive to it. My
son also says the oddest things. We were decorating for Christmas and he told
me that I should decorate my ornament a certain way because it would “be lovely”.
I’m not quite sure where he gets it from…
They have both made new friends,
some of whom live close enough for them to run to their house and play. That is
a big step for us, because in the other neighborhood, I was nervous to let them
go out of sight of the house. Not sure why. I just couldn’t do it without
having a mild panic attack. Now I just tell them to watch for cars and they are
off. They are both asking to do sleep overs, and have had a couple since school
started, but that is somewhat difficult since they go stay with their dad
pretty much every other weekend. I’m hoping that they are able to do more once
the holidays are over and we get back into a routine though.
Though all of this is heading
toward wonderful, I had my first indication that things were really looking up
a couple months ago. We were having our usual Friday Night ‘Roccan Bed night
and my daughter turned to me and said “Mama, you’re different.” I replied, “Different
good or different bad?” She said, “Different good. You’re more happy.” That
conversation made me stop a moment to take in life as it stands now that I am
divorced and on my own to see that life really is heading toward wonderful.
